I am haunted by the past and the present. I haven't slept for days, my eyes are tired and my heart keeps beating faster than it should. I am awake, I think about lost loves, lost hopes and what lies ahead.
It's a battle, it has started once again. Fear devouring my sanity and senses. All this lack of acceptance and all this wanting things I wasn't meant to have.
All those unreachable expectations and all those dreams that became nightmares, they keep me awake.
I still see him and I can see how he sees me. How his senses has deteriorated and how he has no interest. Today, I still feel the pain however this is how things are written to be. There's a lack here, a lack in what we see and feel.
As expected I am once again alone in my room. Strangers have left, enjoying a 24 hour drinking spree and driving all over town. As soon as the party ends, they get bored. Strangers leave like ants; in line and organized.
Here I am, I am just wandering completely.
No comments:
Post a Comment